That's a snippet from a terrible 80s song called "love in the first degree". But I am indeed guilty of that.
Had Coffee with Julia today, who asked (with her teutonic acuity) "You don't really want to go back to work do you?". Of course I protested, and cited Sophie's incomplete potty training, the school issue, and so on. But the truth is, I've more or less set up my child care arrangements (2 aiyis in 2 shifts with an hour overlap), and my shipment is 80% set up. So I supposedly can go back to work. But I find it soooo hard.
And here is why - with all 8 teeth (Count them Sandra and Gina!!) :
So - what would you do if you were me?
We don't desperately need the money. But if we want to have a second kid at our currently comfortable standard of life, then we probably should be a double income family. If not, we would have to settle for less material well being. But is that necessarily a bad thing?
I am not an obssessive materialist, but I like our comfortable life, even if I know we don't NEED it in the way that say, a migrant child in a Beijing suburb does. I like having 2 aiyis, and I like paying them both generously. It makes me feel good. It's like going to a restaurant and giving a good tip. Sure the waiter might appreciate it. But yet in absolute moral terms, surely I should have just saved the cost of the meal and given away the entire amount?
I am tired, and I am looking forward to our Korea vacation where my parents can look after Sophie whilst Fabien and I escape for our 2nd wedding anniversary weekend.